My Love Story!!!DAMN is a Bitch

"How is your result?" "Did you pass?"

"Yes,with a grade point of 8.2."

The first question was my mom's and the second was dad's.

               Hi guys I am Rahul,Rahul Kasyap.These types of questions are always asked by my parents after my exams.I am the only child of my parents.If you thinking that I am the only child of my parents so everybody loves me than you are wrong.The amount of love that I should get from my parents was not enough,I have to fight with my parents for everything.We are a middle class family.My parents have lots of dreams for me. 

              I was an average student in my academics.Eventually,I passed my High School with a grade point of 8.2 and got admission in a good higher secondary school in the city.The city was 100 miles away from our home,so I have to stay in  a rent house there with my best friend.Then we started schooling from there only.We both took science as our courses,but after a month of battling to understand what Newton or Einstein told the world about science I give up and jump to commerce.Though I cannot jump in sports but jumping in my academics is my special talent.In past also I had  jumped from here and there.I still remember I made my first jump from musical school to art school,and then  from art to karate and finally I give up jumping when I jump from karate to cricket coaching and I leave my cricket coaching at half.But one thing I didn't jump from,that was from my computer,my love for  computers  is more than others.

                  Now lets get back to my story,as I told you I jumped to commerce from science,I started doing commerce classes and I like it more than science but it was tougher for me because I attended my commerce classes lately.But I managed somehow and started to think like a businessman.

                   Generally I was not a regular student of my school,one day when I was in the school,I was bunking the class.One of our teacher saw me and my friends roaming here and there,so she called us but none of us went to her  and ran away and went to the arts room.That day arts students were not having any classes,so we sit there.I was fighting with one of my friend over his cell phone when I saw that beautiful girl for first time,I had never seen a girl like her in my life.It didn't took too much time for me to fell in love with her.I tried to inquire about that girl and this led me to her name,her name was Sia Sharma. 

                     You are thinking that this is my first love,no you are wrong because I had a couple of love stories before.My first love happened when I was in class 2,I fell in love with my English teacher and my serious first love.......happened in class 8,this time the girl was older than me.My next love was the same girl that my best friend loves.My love stories are like a bitch.My relationship doesn't remains for many days.Generally in love,relationships mean a couple loving each other,going for date,watching movies together,going for shopping together but in my love stories those sweet things were far away because in my relationship I fell in love with girls but the girls don't even know my name.So I called it a bitch.My so called relationships doesn't remain for so long because my special talent jumping doesn't stop following  me here also.Every beautiful girl I see I fell in love with them.Sia was third,no may be fourth,no actually it was my fifth time,so she was my number five.But this time I couldn't remove this girl from my mind and my heart.I started to attend my classes regularly now.So that I could see her.I really fell for her,she was the first girl that I fell love with who didn't came to my mind during maturebating.I stop watching porn.I start to watch romantic movies more and more.I became like sweet lover boy.Every beautiful girl  I saw resemble her to me.Every beautiful actress resemble her face.

                                         Some days past like this,when one day I search her in Facebook.I found hundreds of Sia Sharma,but I found the right one and sent a friend request.We both had 20 mutual friends.Whatever I saw in her likes I also liked them,but I didn't know a single shit about the likes.I wait to get in her friend list but my friend request was on waiting for weeks and then months.

                                  After some months one night when I was asleep,a friend of mine called me and told me the heart breaking story about her.No she didn't died.So what he told?He told me about her boyfriend.Ya that's a heart breaking thing.My friend told me that he was talking with his girlfriend over phone when he mentioned about my feeling about Sia and his girlfriend told about Sia's boyfriend.Then he told the name of that lucky guy,it shocked me cause he was the most popular guy of our school,he was Neil Brahma,the drummer of our school band.My confident was in dust in a moment.That son of a bitch friend of mine didn't forget to remembrance me that he was more handsome,rich than me and also told me that Sia's lips were not virgin.

                                 Some time after I disconnect my phone it again rang,this time it was text from my same friend who told me about Sia and Neil,the text was like 

"hey dude dn't wrry its ok,its hppns,bdw  do u knw dey r mst fams n bst cople in d scul" 

       That sucks,that really sucks.

                          I replied "yup shits hppns"

I had faced this type sad ending in my love life before but this time it was different,I couldn't sleep that night any more.I couldn't study for a week.I forget about my laptop.....which was my mate during the great search for her in Facebook,which was my mate in liking what she liked in Facebook,which was my mate in watching those boring romantic movies,which was my mate for waiting for her to accept me as her friend in Facebook and which was my mate for watching her profile picture for hours in Facebook.Some months went when I finally learnt to stop thinking about her and finally she was out of my mind but not my heart.

                                                      [After 1 and half year]

                           How time went I cannot imagine.My school days were going to end in few days.I passed my 1st year,I changed my rent room and went to hostel,also I became the most irregular student of the school.Except some teachers others don't even know me.My maths teacher asked me one common question every time he meet me outside the school or the day I went to school after long vacation of my own.The question was "Are you still alive?".My school attendance was only 20%.My interest for her decreases but my interest for my laptop increases and I plan to create a website.I started to bunk my academic's coaching.I stopped Facebook,I loved spending my whole time in internet in my laptop finding how to become the next Bill Gates or next Mark Zuckerberg .

                          Time went on,my last school exams finally came and I went to school after one whole month to attend the exam.First day we have Economics,she also have Eco and my luck was good,not because paper was easy but Sia and I was sitting in the same bench.I don't know how my exam was but my day was great.I was smiling when I came out,my friends thought I was smiling because I did well in exams but that was not the reason.The reason was she talked to me for the first time.She asked me "Do you know no. 3 ?" and my answer was "I had send you friend request in Facebook,please accept it."She said "WHAT?" at that moment the external came and she  quickly looked to her answer sheet and my all concentration was on her,after that I couldn't write a single word.I went to the hostel immediately and took my laptop and opened my Facebook account and waits for her reply but she didn't accept my friend request.   

                          That was my last exam day when I saw her for second time during exam.I was waiting outside the school with my friend after our exam finished when one of my friend show her and told "Look who is coming".I stand there like a statue and watch her until she walked into her car and went away.I promised to myself next time I see her I obviously gonna tell about my feelings for her.Then I got one more chance.It was our farewell when we met again.Our farewell held in a hotel,actually it was thrown by our juniors.She talked to me this time again and asked me "Do you know where is Neil ?"....."Do you know him ?". I replied "No."Still I was happy because she talked me but I could't say anything about my feelings.

                  After four horrible months it is our result declaring day.Our results were declared on 7th of June.I am very exited for my results.At around 10 am our results were declared.I was shocked by my result,I did well enough  and I scored 7.2,I was happy not because I did well because Sia scored 9.5.I went to school and after sometime later she also came with Neil.They seems to be very happy.Like everybody I also congratulate her and went to hostel.

                  That evening I packed my all belonging and went to my home.I started  to concentrate on my website and took admission in a local college.The first day of college was amazing and in the third day I saw a girl and fell for her.After couple days later I came to know her name,her name was Aparna.One day during our off periods I went to her and asked for her number and that night I proposed her,next day she excepted my proposal.We are now happy couples.

                   One night I was watching " A walked to remember",one of my girlfriend's favorite movie,in my laptop,it  was around 1 am in night when I saw Mandy Moore for first time after 10 minutes and 17 seconds in the movie.I was shocked because Mandy Moore resembles Sia's face.My dead feelings for her got out of its grave.I immediately paused the movie and opened my Facebook account and search for her.I found her easily because after 2 year my request was still on waiting.It didn't shocked me cause I know she don't even know me but our mutual friend increased to 30 from 20.I inspect her profile,I found that she went to Delhi University for higher studies.I downloaded her profile picture and her cover picture.Now I am in trouble I don't know whom to choose,the girl who don't even know my name but who came to my dreams every night or the girl who know everything about me but did't came to a single dream of mine.

                    After thinking a lot I listen to my heart.My heart show me how it took care of Sia and kept in the far corner of it.I just have to realize that Sia was always in my heart.I couldn't remove her from my heart even I removed her from my mind.She was always there in some corner of my heart.

                              Now I want to be somebody that she will know and will never forget.This time I will not leave a single chance to keep out my feelings for her in front of her.

                         One day I will cut my heart out and show her how much I love her.She will find me every where she goes.

                                  She was my dream girl,she is and she will be.

                          I will not commit suicide if she rejects me but when we will die we will be one some where in stars far away from this place may be in holy heaven.I will wait for her life after life.